Monday, July 10, 2006
i hate it.
i really hate it.
why do you have to do this to me?
i dont understand. i really dont.
i know you tried to put it like, less hurting
but yet i cant bear this killing
its too acrimonious to me
and i cant see clearly
of what the fcuk is going on around me
your cruelty has hurt me
your face stabbed me
your words are like the sharpest blade
slicing my heart away
anyway it has already ended
my hope has also faded
its overall a nightmare
why do you have to care
in the end this whole thing leads
to nothing else but death
please . tell me why you even wanna say it to me.
but at least. i dont have to break my promise .
its already feeling numb. maybe you shalnt worry too.
why do i even care abt how you feel still? when everything has already broken into pieces.
LALA. i cant be any better.
( as if. (: )
i dont really understand it dear
i still remember all the sweet moments we shared
why did it all suddenly ended
i guess i will never understand
you never let me know the reason
i suppose it will remain as the mystery
its really okay, i told myself
because it will never be the same
LaLaLa singing to myself
all the infatuation of you
LaLaLa singing to myself
imagining all the moments of us together
though knowing it will never happen
again
it has stopped at the intersection
my feelings faded and my heart is numb
all the pain will be relieved one day
and that day shall be
eternity
hurt and cried. no one cared. "whatever you do, please dont doubt the love i have for you. all these days are like a long long dream, i dont want to wake up. if i really had to , i hope the ending of the dream is death and death alone. and i really want to know if you love me. please do not doubt about the love i am having for you, however, that i see no poiint of me continuing this relationship like this when i am not even sure if you ever loved me. i do hope to continue, but i really wish you understand that i cannot do it alone. i need you."
--adapted from message in hp archive, saved 11 05 41pm 310506
dear. maybe i still love you. even though you might not understand. i had strived on for so long. but for your sake, i am willing to give up. cos i love you still.
Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
3:07 AM
