Saturday, October 29, 2005

Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
4:25 PM

Thursday, October 20, 2005

today is a BIG day again.

aahhhhaaaaaaaas. me is going really mad.

i HATES my blogskin now. how come my FAMILIAR girl goes MISSING?!?!?!

=(

gonna change blogskin AGAIN so MAARRHH FAAANNN~~~!!!

ok. me got back my result. VERY EXTREMELY HORRIFYING. me got 2nd in class for math which makes me a lil bit better. *haolien-ing* no la. me jk only.
ya. then me FAILED my home econs. ARGH. because of a 8-mark question. me is SO sad argh. =.=

i dunno wad to say, says my mom, they insults me and keep hurting me.

a: u noe wad!!!!! ^^
b: wad? *not interested*
a: i noe sth abt........ you!!!!! *ahhhhaaahahaass!!*
b: ??? o.o
a: today is the 20th.. you are flying HIGH today!! =D
b: ohh. no big deal i guess??
a: today u should TELL him!!
b: no la. not today. please lor. its not the time!! =(
a: o.0
b: and.. i think he hates me =(
a: he dont hates you +)
b: ...

a conversation between me and somebody**. me is b. =.=

=( my piano teacher is LEAVING !!!!! T_TT_TT_T

hmmm. today went to j8 with J and S. J and S are like err ignoring me =( so sad. argh. then later alight from the bus with J and saw that STUPID man. argh. FFFFF him =.= nvm it.

why my BELOVED ones are all leaving me? why i only know how to treasure them when they are already gone? why cant i just have a peaceful life? why am i like so GREEDY towards life? why dont i just have a right attitude towards my studies? why do i always have to cry after the exams? why do i have to fall for somebody that i shouldnt have fall for? why are these things happening in my life?????????????????

O.o o.O oh my gawd i am DYING.

it is a very bad day. for most of us. and i hates my results. and i HATES myself. for being so ****** and i REALLY disappoints myself. maybe i am just havin a standard that is too high for me. maybe. who knows.

Lord Jesus, let me have more holiness from you. Oh Lord, keep my heart. always pure to you. no other earthly loves i see. but only you Lord. Oh Lord Jesus. Clear all my burdens. they are really FREAKING me out. Lord i give all my earthly thoughts to you. oh Lord Jesus i give myself to you. may you lead me in everything i do, everyway i go. Oh Lord Jesus, thank you.

a little prayer from me. maybe i feel a little bit better now?
*depressed* _____*sigh*

T_T

[ today is a black-marshmallow-ish day. ]

Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
9:46 PM

Saturday, October 15, 2005

today is a BIG day.
so. what is the BIG deal?
ohh. toady is the XINMIN SECONDARY SCHOOL OPEN HOUSE!!
oh diaong. =.="

ya. today is the open hse thingy. lol. and the parents are there WASTING their time to listen to COMPLETE CRAPS. which i dont care. i DONT care. lol.

me was there very early. my shift for helping ms aisha is 10-11am, then i was there like 2 1/2 hours EARLIER. me was there staying bored with NOTHING to do. -.-"

then i saw minghui. then i followed her to the hall. where i saw a bunch of choir seniors preparing. LOL. me was helping then. but actually me did nth really important larhs. o.- shldnt say that actually?? but it turns out to be quite nice i think??

then i was up on the 4th storey playing the piano. which has ABSOLUTELY no place to support my scores. i was FRUSTRATED. nah. not really though O.o then LOL the seniors were trying to THROW the MELIZO III banner down from 4th storey!!! to the 3rd. =X then i was helping LOL. until like they are about to hang it on the hall de side door. i was holding one end of it: it is SO HEAVY!! my arms going to break le :'( jonathan, (was it sherman too?) and chin yan tried to tie it up the door LOL. though it was a LIL slanted ^^ but we dont mind hehhehs. XMCHORALE RULES. me HEART xmCHORALE =)

hehhehs. changed a font. for fun =P

ya. then i kept crapping. *skipskipskip* i was SO bored helping ms aisha. until like 12. then i was FREED AHAHAAAAHHHAAASS ^0^ me went to help muarh seniors =) i dont know why but i suddenly become so o.0 enthu??? lol??? and stupid too??? when up there. LOL. sigh. o.0

*skipskipskip* me sat down to listen to VP craps abt XMS. which is LOL-ly *dooooot*. doot refers to a word that i dont know how to describe. heh hehs?

*skipskipskip* why the font changes back? =.= then me went home. then yunjia asked me to do blogskin for her. then i did eventually. ya. it turns out to be nice =)

*skipskipskip* my mom wants to read my blog. let her READ then. ahahahaaas. o.o me dont know what to say le. *dooooooooooooooooooot* doot refers to the UNKNOWN feeling i have now when i am typing my post. at 20 08 .

*skipskipskip* me LOVES my skin. i want to change another one on wednesday maybe?? lol??

okies. this is todays post. *publishes*

Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
8:08 PM

Friday, October 14, 2005

argh. ok. correction to previous post. i dont hate her. i am just being insulted by her MEANINGLESS and ENDLESS nagging and the WILL to WASTE my PRECIOUS 1 hour and 15 mins IN THE MEETING.

ok. WHATEVER.

i dont care larhs.

oh ya. actually tonite shld be the time that i am telling him the truth lor. but i cannot be online thanks to that WOMAN**. argh. may you people understands me. =X

me feel VERY depressed and REJECTED now.

a: shall i tell him??? i feel like telling him the truth liao..
b: i dunno?? is either u tell him, he reject you, and u feel hurt and get over it, or u dont tell him, feeling rejected yourself, and NEVER KNOW THE TRUTH.

lol. thanks to RACHEL =) <333

ya. actually its sorta true larhs. thanks to all my fwens for supporting me. =) lurf ya lots lots lots =P

i STILL loves my blog. ahahas. even though i prefer the other skin. =X i just found out that the skin actually CAN be used. and i dint noe -.-"

i feel quite bad now larhs. tmr there is err, open house and i think i am supposed to help ms aisha. to do dunno wad thing. and SHIT i forgot to call joey to check out the time. OH F.

i dunno wat to say le. very very very very *doooooot*. doot refers to the word that i cant think of now. argh. i am FREAKING OUT actually.

the exams are finally over. so i can slack now. but wat is down there is that there are more things to come, there is still syllabus(dunno how to spell -.-) , more stress to come, and there are still more things to do. which FREAKS me out alot. AGAIN. and why bother to keep working and dont hav the chance to REST for a while. eventually the consequence is that u will DIE izznt it.
=(

congrats dexter!! =) budden dun SAHH BOOHH the SL wor. me shall not mention the name here. =)

COOOOLLLL me can STILL feel the EXCITEMENT when i heard the news. DEXTER U RAWK LOL.

ok me stop le. he is still not online. dun think he will be online for tonite larhs. =( ok. anw.. ya. i dunno what i am writing here. i am writing my post out of COMPLETE FRUSTRATION but i feel better now =)

gd luck to myself telling him the truth. oh ya me wanted to type sth here lor. still can ma??

a comme amour

My love how can you be so naughty with my heart
My love how can you play so often with my love
My love you shouldnt play with me the way you do
you will regret
i will forget i am sure

if you could know
how many times i've dreaming of you
you'll know how many times i've been thinking of you
my only love you shouldnt play with me the way you do
you will regret
i will forget i am sure

sorry for the words i've told you
sorry for teh bad thikning i've got there
but my herat is so sad
sorry i can't live without you

but you should say
oh yes you should come with me when i ask
you should marry me when i pray
then i'll take you in my arms, love,
i will press your hands against___ against my heart

My love how can you be so naughty with my heart
My love how can you play so often with my love
My love you shouldnt play with me the way you do
you will regret
i will forget i am sure

sorry for the words i've told you
sorry for the bad thinking i've got there
but my heart is so sad
sorry
i cant live without you___

it is somehow the mood i have. omg i got to sleep now. =X

sighs.

Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
10:24 PM

argh. i HATES her. cant mention the name. and DONT ask me about it. THANKS for your COOPERATION.

Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
5:24 AM

Thursday, October 13, 2005

!@$##@^(*&^&($!(&*(&( I AM SO ANGRY BECAUSE I WAS TYPING MY POST HALFWAY THEN MY EXPLORER CLOSED?! SHALL I SAY HAHAHAAAAA?? OR SHALL I LAUGH? OR SHALL I

C R Y ?????

T_T T_T

sighs.

now i dun feel like typing any more.

i misses my HIM*.

sigh. argh. that STUPID freak. TALK TOTAL CRAP. ARGH. SHIT HIM MANNNN.

NOW i feel like crying.argh. hmphss.

now i dun feel like talking anymore. argh. -.-"

Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
9:04 PM

Thursday, October 06, 2005

wehew. long no blog le. miss my blog =)

hmm. aniiwaes. EOY MAN. i HATE eoy. =(

a: X and Y are steadingg!!
b: *gasp* i dunno they are STEADINGG!!!

LOL. somehow reminds me of [yiting/samuel/jaemeng/elgin/weiyao/weiyeat/shaojie/joelle/linyao/evon/karling/terence/xinjuan].
oops. too long. -.- dun hav me though ^o^;;

=p

ok. anyway. i still have lotsa exams to go. like wad. HMT 1 HMT 2 math 1 history sci1 sci2 MT listening ART math2 HOMEECONS and stupid ORAL. -.-

arghh. i am going to FAIL.

during literature today me take off my specs and wanting to sleep while i still got 3 more questions to go. and then i really took off my specs and i dint sleep. i SCRIBBLEEDD instead. ahahahas. not funny >=(
aniwaes.

i SUX.

-.-

thanks evon =) <33

thanks Samuel =) <3

thanks Jun hei =) <33

thanks pway Weng =) <333

thanks my frens =) <3333333333

i am crapping again. i sounds like i am going to die or something like that.

yarhs.

tmr got HMT. ohh i mention already. -.-

i want to stop writing here le. -.-

Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
4:22 PM

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