Monday, December 19, 2005
i am a whateverer. o.O
anw.
i think i am kinda super bored? because i think i am seriously bored? which worsens my boredom to the khor*? and all those boring stuff?
?????
okkayy. whatever.
yawn.
last night i am SO scared because i keep hearing weird sounds(i mean it ) from the master room toilet.. sth like people walking.. then knock knock.. and stuff.. then i dun dare open my eyes cos i scared i see sth =X
myy goshh.
then i noticed this notepad thing which i wrote under the title of "blog post for choir camp". paste for u all to see?
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so. its over. i am so tired. tired till blur on sunday morning and then cant play the piano properly - -"
well.
i went for choir camp. -.-
first day:i reached there like super early. then sit there with nth to do. then finally its starting. then we had the telematch thingy. quite fun? cos they hav to dance x) its my evil idea -.-'' but at last everyone dint play according to the rule LOL. but they are supposed to hav fun so NEVERMIND ahaahahahahass x)
second day:its super tiring.
third day:breakfast's nice and i went back home. -.-
thats all i can rmb cos me was too tired till my memory lost 86%. i am worried.
i am STUPID. <= a thought after choir camp.
d e p r e s s i o n
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yaa. its like that.
actually. seriously. it sounds meaningless.
i am meaningless too.
just now on the way back home a sound kept echo inside my head. it says you are wrong. terribly wrong. to fall for him. all meaningless. waste of your time. i replied. okay. fine. as you wish. i will end my so called feelings for him here. right here X and never mention it again. lock it inside the darkest corner of my heart and never talk abt it again. not even thinking abt it. that will only bring pain forward. to my heart. tear the old wound to make it worse. more pain, more tears. less hope, less senses. then your heart will get frozen and stuff. and then its all gone. into eternity.
o.O
okayy i think i want to change a blogskin. a nicer one. or what. a meaningless one.
sighh.*
Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
2:15 AM
