Thursday, October 20, 2005
today is a BIG day again.
aahhhhaaaaaaaas. me is going really mad.
i HATES my blogskin now. how come my FAMILIAR girl goes MISSING?!?!?!
=(
gonna change blogskin AGAIN so MAARRHH FAAANNN~~~!!!
ok. me got back my result. VERY EXTREMELY HORRIFYING. me got 2nd in class for math which makes me a lil bit better. *haolien-ing* no la. me jk only.
ya. then me FAILED my home econs. ARGH. because of a 8-mark question. me is SO sad argh. =.=
i dunno wad to say, says my mom, they insults me and keep hurting me.
a: u noe wad!!!!! ^^
b: wad? *not interested*
a: i noe sth abt........ you!!!!! *ahhhhaaahahaass!!*
b: ??? o.o
a: today is the 20th.. you are flying HIGH today!! =D
b: ohh. no big deal i guess??
a: today u should TELL him!!
b: no la. not today. please lor. its not the time!! =(
a: o.0
b: and.. i think he hates me =(
a: he dont hates you +)
b: ...
a conversation between me and somebody**. me is b. =.=
=( my piano teacher is LEAVING !!!!! T_TT_TT_T
hmmm. today went to j8 with J and S. J and S are like err ignoring me =( so sad. argh. then later alight from the bus with J and saw that STUPID man. argh. FFFFF him =.= nvm it.
why my BELOVED ones are all leaving me? why i only know how to treasure them when they are already gone? why cant i just have a peaceful life? why am i like so GREEDY towards life? why dont i just have a right attitude towards my studies? why do i always have to cry after the exams? why do i have to fall for somebody that i shouldnt have fall for? why are these things happening in my life?????????????????
O.o o.O oh my gawd i am DYING.
it is a very bad day. for most of us. and i hates my results. and i HATES myself. for being so ****** and i REALLY disappoints myself. maybe i am just havin a standard that is too high for me. maybe. who knows.
Lord Jesus, let me have more holiness from you. Oh Lord, keep my heart. always pure to you. no other earthly loves i see. but only you Lord. Oh Lord Jesus. Clear all my burdens. they are really FREAKING me out. Lord i give all my earthly thoughts to you. oh Lord Jesus i give myself to you. may you lead me in everything i do, everyway i go. Oh Lord Jesus, thank you.
a little prayer from me. maybe i feel a little bit better now?
*depressed* _____*sigh*
T_T
[ today is a black-marshmallow-ish day. ]
Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
9:46 PM
