Thursday, May 17, 2012
你就直接回头吧 她在等着你
不要怕我会哭泣 早就在心底
想想你说过的话 其实我们不虚假
那就好吧 其实你对我不差
别对我食之无味 弃之可惜
虽然你还有感觉 但不是爱情
想想你说过的话 其实我们不虚假
那就好了吧 这些够了呀
我们的爱情是秘密 不能成立
就算我爱你也不能够说明
她在你身边逗你开心
我只不过让你歇斯底里
你就让我跟着你一起秘密
我们的事情 说好不提起
让我们 都能够清晰
你和她 是不变的 定律
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别对我食之无味。
Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
10:15 PM
Friday, May 11, 2012
no seriously.. so what if my life sucks? so what if all my hook ups and boys in my life appear in the same fucking taylors lounge at the same time and all sit around me? so what if when i walk on campus and every angle i turn to i see my hook up walking across campus? so what if i got closed out on one of the class that im actually looking forward to taking in fall term? so what if i procrastinated so much that i havent finish writing the paper that im supposed to upload at midnight tonight? so what if i still havent start writing the post to recruit possible students for the program that i am doing?
a lot of things in my life is wrong. i know that.
but so what. fuck this. i can pull through.
it's only 3 exams next week.
it's only 1 performance and a really important audition next week.
oh well, so what.
im sure i can do this.
睹物思人
物是人非
Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
4:38 PM
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
这次期初考试。
语文作文给我写成一篇十分emo的文。
然后昨晚跟妈妈交涉到12点。获批不去学校 出去自己学习。
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i wonder whats really wrong with me.
havent been feeling so suicidal for a long time alr.............................?
mood swing..?
Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
5:35 AM
Friday, December 18, 2009
oh whoa this is my 101th post... and its gonna signify the revival of my long-dead blog! XDsomething quick before i sleep. :Dwent to a gospel meeting tonight. its all routine stuffs... but quite enjoyable. but what touched me was the fellowship the brother had with a group of sisters. he wasnt saying it to me, but it touched me alot."why bother comparing? something you understand, for example, might not necessarily be somthing that she understands. because you guys went through different experiences. we grow, not only with life, but with different experiences in life. so that makes us having no right to compare ourselves with others."i was sitting beside her, thinking this thing makes sense..... totally.ugh. my day is half half half productive today. gonna go grandmas house and pick up some random viewbook again(i suppose) and maybe i should ....... do the financial forms and stuffs.love you all.<3,anna
Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
7:21 AM
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
On plane, all we did was eating, drinking, reading and sleeping. At least for me it is so, which was pretty retarded, because every time I woke up it must be the trolley goes around distributing food, food and food. Sigh. And suddenly I realized that after eating so much we are only around 2 hours away from Beijing. It is like WOW we are there so freaking fast? Compared to the trip TO Cleveland, the trip back seems so much faster because we spent literally 37 hours on plane, excluding the waiting time. Ha. After coming out of the airport my first impression of this big city is that it is huge, dirty, dusty, and hot. Hopelessly hot. It is out of your imagination how hot it is to live up in Beijing. And I saw on the weather forecast that somewhere down southeast it is reaching up to 40 Celsius. I wonder how the heck those people are able to live in such places. And soon I found out the answer pretty soon. The solutions are easy—just stay at home with your air conditioning on. Then you’ll stay pretty cool.
Oh wells. So we reached Beijing, the Zhangs treated us to this meal that makes me realize what kind of CHINESE food I was eating in America, which pretty proves that Chinese food is only more original in its origin place—china.
Yea and then I came back people were asking me if I want to drink beer. Im like um im still under 21… and I was speaking in English to my mom that even im under 21, when I go back to North America I would hang out with peter and go drink beer and my mom was like um okay?
Oh well. And then I realized the cultural difference between Chinese people and Western people. Like when American people treat you to a dinner all they tell you is to serve yourself and that’s all. And Chinese people don’t ask you, instead all they do is keeping adding food into your bowl or dish and you just keep eating and they won’t listen to you when you say IM FUCKING FULL. Ha.
And thinking of the schooling in China all I have in me is fear, fear and fear. The teachers criticize you without even thinking. That’s what I like about the education in Western cultures: they encourage you instead of criticizing you all the time.
Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
7:44 PM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
now the fact is, i still cant believe that i am actually leaving america in the next, 36 hours. it is incredible.
this trip here is very amazing, considering that i could never had been here.
followings are my memories, arranged in chronicle's order.
arriving in LA. arriving in Las Vegas. arriving at CLE. giant eagle. k&kmarket. cooking using aluminum foil. italian bread. register in sch. LHS. schedule. placement test. getting lost in school. deborah. pearl. 1008. piano. esther chu. shulamite. sean. dont drink the water. barnstormers. end of the world. choir. home design. psychology. oliver. auditions. piano exam. birthday. deb left. tim. christina. ben chen. disciple camp. winsconsin. the lu. xia. facebook. the fake revealed itself. tiffany. vane. jack. mr hottie. ha . chu. danni moved over to flowershop. min. min and jerry. morning revival every morning. watchman nee. snow fights. volleyball. troy MI. dayton OH. Columbus OH. Maryland MD. Washington DC. Pittsburgh PA. cedar point. detroit MI. new lappy. AIM. myspace. peter. alan. peter wu. christine sun. choon hyang. yoo hee. devil.
look at all those i had written. i forgot many cos my mind is too preoccupied.
sigh. all those worries.
i thank my Lord for giving me peterw as my brother, my companion, who had listened and talked to me when i have too many things in mind.
thanks to tiff and pw for bringing me to a night tour to columbus and get lost and cant find the way back to ashland woods manor.
thanks for giving me all those precious memories.
"there is no imaginary 58 go screw yourself"
"!xobile"
"F YOU DAD"
"BE a man. DO the right thing."
"B BB BBBB BB BBBB BB B B B B"
HAHHAHHAAA. that makes me laugh.
i m glad that i came when im 16. if i came any younger i would not have enjoyed the same stuffs, the same feelings that i would have when the things happen to me.
people around me were in car accidents and almost none of them were hurt.
mountain top.
sally yang.
college training. stars.
danni broke his arm bone. because he threw the ball too hard.
benjamin annoys me but he is so cute -.-
i miss singapore and tom yam and laksa and chicken rice and cup noodles and roti prata and all that.
i miss deffany and dorothy and lydia and hana and xiaozhou and samuel lee and gwen and mt and rachel and langston and loads of other people that i have yet to be mentioned.
oh my gawd.
=.= im so tired. i slept at 4 am for the past 3 weeks and i am seriously very very tired.
but i m trying to adjust to the time diff la. one day a person can adjust to an hour diference, so i need around 2 weeks to totally adapt to the new timing in china.
think of all those food to come. XD
cant wait.
think of all those stress and pressure to come.
wtf.
noooooo. >< someone [help/talk to/hug/encourage/pray for] me?
5 options. choose one.
thanks ^^
Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
7:55 PM
Friday, July 13, 2007
i hereby is gonna announce something really realllyyyyyyyy important, shocking, disappointing, saddening, whatever negative descriptive word you can think of.
suicidal? o.0 no.
i am leaving for beijing, china on the 27th of july and supposingly not going back to singapore again.
im very sorry, its not my decision, not that i have a choice either -.-
and, omg i hate you peter wu =.=
nvm.
different peters guys. one from lakewood and one from ontario. toronto??
dunno.
im making a hard decision ><
hard hard hard.
i wonder though, cos its actually shld be a very easy one to make.
but i m hestitating so much. im selfish. i want to keep my future to myself.
dont know.
and i still love you; i dont know how to let go of you.
Scuicide On a Sunny Day.
9:05 PM
